I am a native Spanish and Englisih speaker and I am often asked what language I think in.
Spanish is my first language. It was the language where my first safe-spaces were constructed in. It is not a coincidence that all my romantic relationships have been in Spanish.
English came later. As I grew older and more indepedent, it was how I consumed media and music. It was also the common language between friends. I also think about economic transactions in English.
After moving to Colombia in 2018, my bilingualism has helped me understand parts of myself that perhaps I wasn’t able to see while living in New York.
